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And Still WE RISE — Capturing the momentum of the Women’s March … Call to Action list included

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Like many, I am in turn inspired and paralyzed by what is happening in our world. Heartened by the upwelling of Spirit, Hope and Love in the face of the greatest challenge and darkest threat in my lifetime. And distressed by the potential of the destructive forces at play.

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Braving the bus to Women’s March downtown LA 1/21/17 

Regardless of where you fall on the political spectrum, you can’t help but be affected. I practice letting go of judgement and LISTEN to HEAR what is being shown so dramatically from all quarters of humanity. My daily contemplative practice begins each morning with “I am safe. I am protected. I am guided. I act from heart not fear. I have a right to be here. I embrace the world and hold it in glittering light. I revel in that light. I forgive everyone for everything. I forgive myself for everything. I act with power from Sacred Spirit. Let me find balance and be a beacon of harmony, light and peace for others. Amen”

So here, I will share my images gathered from my own experience and the experience of the Incomparable Zoe Kosovic, in the city of Angels, as well as images from Sacramento shared by my daughter, Emily Lalande; from Austin by my friend Barbara Austin; from Washington D.C. from my friend’s daughter, Jasmine Mauss; and lastly from Boston from my friend Alicia Hart.

Call to Action: I will include a list of resources gathered from friends in-the-know about this complicated process of expressing our collected voices. Feel free to share and participate as you feel so moved.

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Here are a series of links for your reference. Special thanks to Anne Bell, Madeline Taylor and Pat Langlois for sharing these resources.

Articles of Interest:

  • From The Sun MagazineAmerican Winter by Krista Bremer
    “Once upon a time, before Donald Trump was elected president, there was a woman who lived on a cul-de-sac where an orange cone in the middle of the road reminded drivers to slow down because children played in the street. …”
  • The Music of Carolyn McDade

This life, in all
its ache and beauty,
is worthy, my friend, of living

(Through the Moons of Autumn)

Were I to say how much I love this earth. . .

…I often wonder what it would be like if we dared to love this life ~ the fragile and the vulnerable, the endangered, daring to be humble before the magnitude of our beginnings, daring to lean our species into a stubborn and pliant wonder, until reverence shines in all that we do ~ until we live an economics of reverence, a theology of reverence, a politics of reverence ~ until it permeates education, development, and health care, homes and relationships, arts and agriculture ~ a reverence for life, for planetary, social, and personal wholeness.

This is our purpose now. May we do it well, with thoroughness and love.

  • OnBeing.org with Krista Tippett
    • “I’m done drinking the draft of despair”   BY  (@JOHNMETTA)Until recently, my social media stream was primarily positive. My consumption of negativity was relatively small, and limited to normal bread-and-butter American racism and misogyny. That I can handle. Now things are different. Now the negativity I swallow includes the frontal assault on everything: woman’s rights, science, the media, the arts. The attack is against everyone who’s not a white nationalist Christian and everything else those who are squatting in Our People’s House want to destroy … Looking inward, I will be focusing on things that increase my energy and strength, rather than drain them…
    • Love in Action An interview with JOHN LEWIS

      We take in the extraordinary wisdom of Congressman John Lewis on what happened in Selma on Bloody Sunday and beyond — and how it might inform common life today. A rare look inside the civil rights leaders’ spiritual confrontation with themselves — and their intricate art of “love in action.”


  • How to Get Out of the Cycle of Outrage in a Trump World, Arianna Huffington, Huffington Post

    “….If we live in a perpetual state of outrage, Trump wins. Because when we become depleted and exhausted, and sapped of our energy, we’re not as resourceful, creative, or effective. The goal of any true resistance is to affect outcomes, not just to vent. And the only way to affect outcomes and thrive in our lives, is to find the eye in the hurricane, and act from that place of inner strength.”

     

  • How to Build an Autocracy  The Atlantic Magazine by David Frum

    The preconditions are present in the U.S. today. Here’s the playbook Donald Trump could use to set the country down a path toward illiberalism.

Events

  • March 15, 2017 (****POSTCARDS****) Ides of Trump –Each of us — every protester from every march, each congress calling citizen, every boycotter, volunteer, donor, and petition signer — if each of us writes even a single postcard and we put them all in the mail on the same day, March 15th, well: you do the math.
  • April 1-3 (****Conference/Lobby****) Sacramento ACLU California Conference & Lobby Day  Join hundreds of likeminded activists from across the state for a powerful weekend of civic engagement and advocacy at our state’s capital.   smedeiros@aclunc.org
  • April 15, 2017 (****RALLY****) Trump Tax Return Day March, Downtown Los Angeles, 10 AM – 4 PM, Pershing Square
    Huffington Post on the Tax March
    LA March Facebook page
    Los Angeles (and the rest of the country) will let the White House know that we want Trump to release his taxes. Join us in a march from Pershing Square to City Hall, and demand Trump release his returns.

Resources:

  • SheShouldRun.org Join She Should Run and step up to inspire more women and girls to consider a future run.
  • What to do about Trump? This site has one of the most comprehensive list of sites.
  • dailyaction.org – sign up for a daily action, such as calling your senator about a particular issue, and you will receive a text each day about what you can do.  You can also click on the link they send and they will dial your congressional leader for you.
  • indivisibleguide.com –  This is the ultimate manifesto  for getting involved and easy things to do to make a difference.  We can even get our own group started and register with them and then it will be available for others to join.  You can also find a local group to join.
  • womensmarch.org –  The womens march website has links to a lot of difference action groups.
  • Contact your Representatives https://www.usa.gov/elected-officials/
  •  5 Calls (gives you five calls that you can make in five minutes. You can sign up within a minute. They send you one email a week) https://5calls.org/
  • The Resistance Manual  (is an open source guide to taking action on a range of issues, from incarceration to immigration) https://www.resistancemanual.org/Resistance_Manual_Home
  • Checklist for Americans of Conscience (this is the result of a woman, Jen Hofmann, who felt paralyzed by the happenings of the country’s situation. She created this weekly “To Do” list…you can click on the link below for this week’s and then subscribe yourself.) You’ve got lots of ways to use your voice this week, so click here to sign up to receive weekly messages and actions in your inbox.
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Boston’s message is LOUD and CLEAR!

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Jasmine Mauss happy to be in Washington D.C.


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The Sun Magazine luminaries dazzle at The Last Bookstore in the city of Angels

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Instragram from event: The Sun Magazine editor Sy Safransky with writer Frances Lefkowitz at The Last Bookstore Los Angeles

My adventure began with a 20 minute walk to the bus stop — a first for me. The bus I mean, not the walk. I was braving public transportation in this swarming metropolis to get downtown to attend a reading by illuminaties from my favorite publication, The Sun Magazine, at The Last Bookstore. It was going to be an journey. I was going to meet a friend of my daughter’s, Hunter, who would drive me back at the end of the night, so I wouldn’t be foolish enough to trek the 2 hours in the dark of night from downtown to the ‘burbs. Hunter armed me with an app called “Moovit” that tracked local transit, giving a blow by blow of where you are in the maze as you travel. Useful.

I left in plenty to time to catch the bus, but I didn’t know what the fare would be. As I was waiting, an Hispanic day worker joined me, and I politely asked if he knew the fare and if I needed exact change. Breaking any subconscious stereotype I might harbor, he generously and unhesitatingly handed me 75 cents – and would not accept my dollar bill. When I boarded and checked with the driver, she said, “Oh honey, it’s only a quarter for seniors!”  What was the give away? My silver hair?? I laughed and gave the nice man back his change.

My next realization was that though I thought I had followed Moovit’s suggestion, to catch the express, I had in fact taken the local, so 62 stops and 60 minutes later, I landed at my first exchange, at Universal City. I asked a stunning, tall brunette woman for directions and she promptly led me to the confusing station with the machines for creating a card that you wave magically in a mysterious direction to enter the turnstiles. *harry potter.. she sounded Brazilian maybe??

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Page from sketchbook done on LA Metro 4/1/16

I did manage to get onto the train, and sketched happily for the next 30 minutes of my ride. I gawked at the sheer size of the enormous silver hoop earrings one plumb Black woman unselfconsciously sported… and the men in hats reminded me of the 40s when felt chapeaus were all the rage.

 

 

 

 

 

Arriving the surface from at the underground, I felt a distinctly foreign feel — I no longer felt I was in Los Angeles – but had been transported to Greenwich Village. A bit seedy, gritty and smelly, the streets were filled with characters. You could tell the locals from those of us from the literary crowd who had braved the trip to downtown to hear The Sun writers read — we were better dressed, many silver haired, and a bit wary of our surroundings. Making my way to The Last Bookstore, I was immediately intrigued, and felt well rewarded for my efforts. Tunnel_6047

It looked like a Harry Potter set, with counters, shelves and tunnels made of old books … the old bank building had been transformed, with vaults dedicated to horror, torture and other apt subjects. the grand room was surrounded by an upstairs balcony, replete with art studios and quaint tiny shops.

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Art displayed in an atelier window of The Last Bookstore.

I trundled along the street seeking sustenance before the reading was to begin. I came upon a little alleyway filled with cafes, poetry readings, coffee, sausage stands and French pastry bars. The smell of handmade tortillas drew me in, and I found myself in line with a woman in town for a local literary convention, which is why The Sun was in town. The name escapes me of course, but it was for writing professors – those who teach writing in the universities, etc. We had a fascinating conversation – she was from Austin, professor at the University of Texas. We ate and wandered back to the bookstore, taking our seats as the crowd was assembling. My friend, Hunter, showed up and we commenced to have a good chat. I told him about the submission I had made to The Sun – my first – on the topic of Houses. My story was about the one that changed my life, where my siblings all gathered in this huge old farmhouse, and my father and sister in law became an item, resulting in 2 divorces, and the birth of 2 more children to my father and this young woman. Three women around me turned and said, “I want to come to YOUR reading!” And Hunter responded, “Yes you do! I’ve known her all my life, and she never ceases to amaze me.” (Hunter had grown up next door with my daughter, from ages 1 to 13…but that’s another story.)

 

 

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At The Last Bookstore with Hunter Orloff.

The readings were well done and well received. There was Howlie Boy a story of white boy growing up in Hawaii, who wanted to be a local, and another by woman who read an intriguing account of her life. My favorite was Fran Lefkowitz that I have featured below. I bought her memoir about growing up poor in San Francisco. I felt such resonance – she was at 18th street – I lived at 17th and Delores after grad school. So her reference points were so familiar. I love her direct style and perceptions are humorous, touching, spiritually enlightening. Her search for meaning parallels my own as I search for new employment in my 60s. I highly recommend it as a good read from many levels.

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Frances read the entire Epilogue from “To Have Not” a memoir. I have excerpted the first and last paragraph to give you a flavor. 

Epilogue, page 279  

Discover the Future of Your Past

“What do you need to sit fully into your seat?” the yoga teacher asks us in an earnest, probing voice. “To sit fully into your pose, into yourself, into your life?” she continues, as we sit on our mats and try to figure out what she’s talking about. Then she instructs us to bow and “dedicate the energy of your practice” to someone. I wonder: Is dedicating my practice to someone to same thing as praying for him? I wiggle my butt on the little round meditation pillow, trying to sit fully into it, and decide to dedicate my practice to my younger brother, who has just been “transitioned” out of his job.

Last paragraph … page 294

“Hey,” says my niece with the unsilent e, “the word eye is pronounced the same as the word I … but they don’t have any of the same letters.” She is delighted with her cleverness at having made this discovery, and with the cleverness of the English language, the way it doesn’t make sense but seems to make sense anyway. We are sitting at the kitchen table doing homework out of a purple folder. And though she is actually on her knees in the chair – her legs folded underneath her, the soles of her bare feet facing up, her bottom resting on her calves – she is sitting fully into her seat. Next to her, perched on the edge of my own chair, I try to figure out if my time has passed, if I have both absorbed and lost too much to ever get my body to unfurl like that again, or if I still might have a chance to settle into my own place in this world.

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Solitude inspires deep furred listening for this writer gone rogue

Its been hard to sit down to tell the next part of this saga … As a writer, storyteller and spiritual seeker, I’m continuing to mine for meaning in my foray into solitude on my first camping trip, documented in the previous post. It turned out to be a true pilgrimage – but that concept / revelation / realization came to me slowly, as I started to wake up to a new deeper older ancient rhythm… What came to mind was Philip Shepherd’s “brain in the belly” concept written about so aptly in The Sun Magazine April 2013 issue interview “Out of Our Heads.”

In Shepherd’s New Self, New World he explores the implications of the little-known fact that we have two brains: in addition to the familiar cranial brain in the head, there is a “second brain” in the gut. This is not a metaphor. Scientists recognize the web of neurons lining the gastrointestinal tract as an independent brain, and a new field of medicine — neurogastroenterology — has been created to study it.

According to Shepherd, there is a good reason that we talk about “gut instinct.” If cranial thinking sets us apart from the world, the thinking in the belly joins us to it. If the cranial brain believes itself surrounded by a knowable world that can be controlled, the brain in our belly is in touch with the world’s mystery.

Owls were prevalent at the reservoir. Right behind my tent, two old pines housed several hoot owls. I walked underneath the canopy at sunset, and several took off on their evening hunt. Another landed above me in splendor. It was so inspiring. I found a bouquet of feathers underneath in the fragrant pine needles - a bounty I treasure. These will show up in art projects I'm certain.

Owls were prevalent at the reservoir. Right behind my tent, two old pines housed several hoot owls. I walked underneath the canopy at sunset, and several took off on their evening hunt. Another landed above me in splendor. It was so inspiring. I found a bouquet of feathers underneath in the fragrant pine needles – a bounty I treasure. These will show up in art projects I’m certain.

Incredible full moon rise over the hills at San Luis Reservoir.

Incredible full moon rise over the hills at San Luis Reservoir.

A whale of a tale

I almost don’t want to jinx it trying to articulate what I discovered in my solitude. It was so visceral. Unexpectedly so, though I did ask for a clear sign that there is a Guiding Spirit.  This was way more than a momentary clear sign – this was the mother whale sliding along side and taking a chunk out of my consciousness with her unfathomably large mouth – a cavern in its own right…. Her baleen jaws came down along my right side from the crown of my head to below my right scapula. A fissure opened up like a spring in the rocks of the caves I crawled into at Pinnacles National Park.  In an earlier post, The Only Way Out is Through, I tell the harrowing tale of getting lost in another set of caves at this remote Condor refuge.

Like a cartoon drawing I “saw felt” my body tear open and peel away a layer exposing this crevice that was an EAR of its own – letting in this stream of sound – thick viscous earthly fecund force of nature whale song – mixed with owl hoots ringed by wolves baying – wings flapping, red crested woodpeckers swarming, feathers opening in a flutter of excitement, gurgling springs, my breathing, the throbbing of my heart, feeling/hearing my blood steam jungle through my pulses …

Does that give some idea how momentous this is? I was laying on the ground, having succeeded in isolating myself from humanity for long enough to actually tune into this realm of what … natural phenomenon? Sound scape of spires and swooooopppps rik-o-shaying off the inside of my own crystalline walls?

Astoundingly beautiful golden California hills at sunset.

Astoundingly beautiful golden California hills at sunset.

Of caverns and anchors

I rooted myself into this gulping yaw, fastening molecular structures hard and fast onto every facet I could. I knew this was a turning point, the pivot of passage into cavernous new territory. That voice sound ambient ancient rumble I heard is now mine, to guide me along the animal instinct ley lines of the topography of the unknown I have fallen into.

It was this sensual viseral space I needed to anchor myself. When I find myself gripped by this sickening anxiety in my gut, I slip under my mind’s radar and into my body awareness muscle memory of this anchor. Remind myself I have nothing to fear. Reality will continue to present itself in its many and varied phantoms and phenoms. No doubt. No matter what I do, it will unfold. Stressed or blessed I will be HERE in the NOW stepping onto the high wire one step at a time. Don’t look down, don’t look back – breathe, stay present, trust, keep moving.

So I come to this juncture. I’m in the woods, at the seashores, in California’s largest reservoir, learning my way through building fires, erecting a tent, facing the darkness of the night in the campgrounds and finding my resilience in solitude and simplicity. I can do this. I can find myself in this quiet, spacious earth. I can steer into the perfect job, the perfect companion, the perfect abode – and leave the ‘perfection’ to be defined by Spirit.

And here I am. Listening. With my little ear, and my BIG SHAGGY RAGGED EAR. Dancing into the lightness of moment-by-moment awareness, in the midst of strangling dark caverns of fear. Every day I turn down the covers, place my feet squarely on the red oak floor, breathe in and lift myself up into the morning.